First, I should say that now that I read into her character, it’s probably pretty inaccurate and messed up for me to call her a “trans girl.” Poison’s a Street Fighter character who was designed to be Newhalf, which from what I get is a woman with male genitals. Idk much about Japanese gender variance (and I hope that term’s not fucked up) so I’ll just leave it at that.
Now about your question, I can’t really tell you whether or not you’re looking at pictures of naked trans women as human being, though of course I could make a lot of guesses if, say, every tgirl you like has been obviously selected just for cis male gaze with white skin, big breasts, skinny waist, completely feminine and “passable” with a large penis whose just there to please men and do everything they find freaky and such. I’m highly suspicious of cis dudes who seek that shit out. Though I think there’s also something obvious about aversion to porn with trans girls in it, while being perfectly content to look at and masturbate to cis girl porn (even though the vast majority of trans girl porn that’s available is messed up fetish shit—you know, like ALL mainstream porn). But that’s your problem, not mine.
Third, what’s with this assumption from “allies” that all trans women are, like, asexual passive ultra-feminine who are always repulsed at their genitals and just counting the days till they get “the surgery” and can be normal non-threatening girls “just like you” ?? Like, I know there are many trans women who have strong dysphoria with their genitals, many trans women for whom sex has certain particular boundaries, many asexual trans women, and many feminine trans women with a “passive” demeanor, but when did that become the standard?? (the 1950s from psychologists like Harry Benjamin, a fucked up history) Really though, I don’t know that many who fit that entire mold. I know a lot of trans girls who love sex and are pretty comfortable with their genitals, myself included.
The asexual bit too, I’ve felt especially projected on me by my “allies.” It feels like in order for people to be nice to me or be my friends, they gotta make me as non-threatening as possible and just completely remove from their minds that I’m capable of anything sexual. A lot of people straight up infantilize me, like will go extra lengths to praise me for doing some mundane thing in a voice that’s pretty much like the way you’d talk to a 9 year old.
That’s why I reblogged that picture (thinking she was a trans girl). Poison’s naked, just had a good time and is covered with her cum, for her own sexual pleasure, and clearly can probably tear the head off of any dude who fucks with her. The idea that trans women and gender variant people have sex, and are sexy, for themselves, and like it, and can kick ass, that is something that freaks our “allies” out.
This question sucks, btw.